This is a slide show that two awesome girls from my Training put together.  I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.  It’s a really fun look inside the world of Teacher Training Acapulco Fall ’08.

Trusting the process

December 13, 2008

I’ve been home going on four weeks.  Wow, is that all?  It feels like I’ve been here for months already.

So, how about teaching??  Teaching is amazing.  I’ve taught a lot in the past three weeks and it’s even hard for me to remember back to those last days of Teacher Training when I was so nervous about teaching.  I still feel it though, the neverousness, every single time I am preparing to teach.  I have my ritual; change out the battery in the headset, get a bottle of water, set out the towels, stir my tea, and print the list.  But no matter what, I still feel that little tingle in my belly of nervous energy.  I like it.  It reminds me that I’m in the right place.  This is what I am supposed to be doing.  It feels good.

Every class is so different.  I get it now, what all the teachers told me before.  I understand the little things they said about just trusting the process, going with it, and just teaching.  Just teach, give the dialogue, listen, watch, teach.  But as a new baby teacher, I find it even more valuable to trust.  I have a long way to go, and a lot more to learn.  Of course, the learning never really ends.  And I agree that I will always be looking, listening, watching, and opening myself to what teaching really is.  I’ve barely got my foot in the door, but it’s still exciting.

So what happens up there?  I used to watch my teachers and wonder what really happens up there on the podium.  How does it really feel?  What are you thinking about?  The truth is that when I am teaching, I am completely present in the room.  All of my energy is focused on my students, the pace of the dialogue, and keeping them going.  I try to encourage them, gently remind them of things, and occasionally make them laugh.  I try.  I feel like there is some kind of strange miracle that happens when I walk in the room.  I put on the headset, walk in, turn on the lights, and start talking.  Then..  it just happens.  The class happens.  It’s so cool.  That’s the process.  It works.